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[xillia]

honestly, i don't like talking about negativity even one bit. but getting all this negativity bottled up here isn't the best feeling so i figured i'd just vent here.

i don't want to bring up the past and count all the things but when my financial is tight, i couldn't just let it go this time like the previous ones. i guess i'm at fault too, and i'm not as willing as i thought i would, but at least i don't want to appear that way. then people just forget everything and act like it didn't happen, of course i'm going to be angry and frustrated. what i mean by "act like it didn't happen" is joking around when i'm obviously stressed because of all of this and all the other problems. yeah, say what you will, that i am oversensitive and should just take it easy, but let's now swap places, would you do what you think you would? i bet not. i don't like making problems seem big but you know, the problem doesn't just stem from this time, it has been there for a while, and like i said, i didn't want to bring this up before, but now i just well damn, i'm gonna bring this up every time people think i don't deserve the right to be angry.

now i just need an anger management class.